I’m revisiting the subject due to everyday occurrences. I will admit it is partly my fault for bringing this feeling upon myself…playing old love songs that admire having a sense of hope and romance, flashbacks of my favorite memories of being together; however, the feeling has also been brought out with media.
Writers and producers use romantic comedy to relate to their audience, and it works quite well. It seems with every episode I am brought back to that moment, when we lost each other…except it wasn’t as funny and it hurt badly.
This goes along with the music that I choose to play. Even though it is at my doing, the songs still revert me back to old feelings and fond memories. Why couldn’t I choose some feminine empowering type of music?!
I just need some distraction, and currently I don’t have any. There seems to be someone always asking “Where is he?” “What happened?” “Do you have a boyfriend?” – And then I answer honestly and politely, “It didn’t work out.”
Lately I’ve come across what I think could be a ghost in my apartment, pacing back and forth beside my bed…maybe it’s not a ghost at all, perhaps it’s something I want to be there. I’m not sure.
I suppose I still haven’t moved on fully, but like I said, there is nothing to distract me.
