High and Dry

I know this is the way it should be, and probably should have been...
but the first time I wasn't ready.

I wish I was a high enough priority to him...but I understand now that just as he puts himself first, I must do the same for myself. I can't wait around for someone who won't do the same for me. It's one thing if it's mutual, but I felt like I was waiting for the next gig to be over, everynight.

I'm numb to this, but I'm not immune.
This entire experience makes me feel like I'm not worth ranking in his life...well, now it's proven because we aren't together.

I don't think I was asking too much, I just asked him to do more things with me during the daytime. I wanted to share experiences with him so we could have things to talk about and learn more about each other.

I really care about him still, but I care about myself more.
I don't think that's wrong.